Last week I
was at the grocery store with my 3 youngest boys. I kind lady smiled and jokingly said, “You
should have 3 more.” I replied, “Oh, I
do have 3 more, but they are in school.”
She laughed and went about her day.
We are asked
a lot why do you have so many kids and my answer varies depending on my mood. When it comes down to it, we have so many
kids because these are the children the Lord wants us to have and we want to do
what the Lord wants us to do.
Three kids
was a hard number of kids for me. In my
heart I knew we were going to have more, but one night after a long exhausting
day, in frustration I told the Lord that we were done having kids and that if
He wanted us to have more children He had better let me know because as far as
I was concerned, we were done.
That night
the Lord answered me in my dreams, as is His usual mode of communication with
me. In my dream I saw 3 young adult boys
dressed in suits and ties. The middle
one told me, “I am Benson and we are your sons.” I could not see their distinct faces because
a sheer veil or curtain like thing was in between us. Needless to say, I woke up with a changed
heart. I felt an overwhelming love for
these boys and knew I wanted them in our family.
In the next
years our Benson came, followed by Keith and Adam. I thought of them as already part of our
family before they were born. But when
Adam officially joined our family this past February and I was taking a picture
of the 3 boys, I became so emotional. I
told my husband,
“Dreams do come true.”
There are
not enough words to express my gratitude to the Lord for changing my
heart. For helping me to see that what
His will for me was better than what my own will was. Yes, life is crazy with 6 kids and tears are
shed when I am feeling overwhelmed with the task of being a wife and mother to
these children. I make lots of mistakes,
but I wouldn’t have it any other way.
