I was taught from a very young age that I lived in Heaven before coming to earth. I was taught that I was (and we all are) a spirit child of God and that when we are born on this earth, we gain a physical body that is united with our spirit. The idea of a pre-existence is something that always rang true to me because I simply believed what my parents taught me and what I learned at church. Then experiences I have had cemented my belief that I can honestly say I know that I-you-we all lived in Heaven as spirit children before we were born. Knowing these simple truths changes the way I do everything and see everything. It changes the way I act and the choices I make. The purpose of this entry is to add my witness that we truly did live in Heaven before coming to this earth.
So, I am pregnant with our 8th child (10th including our miscarried sons) and this little girl in my tummy is who I wish to write about tonight. In 2007 my third child was born, making it one daughter and 2 sons for us. My Mom came to help with him after his birth. While she was visiting, she had a very distinct dream of a future daughter of ours. Since that day over a decade ago, our family has had numerous dreams and other very special sacred experiences with this little girl. Each pregnancy has been a boy, but I always knew she would come (but, I am so grateful that her 5 brothers (one miscarried) came exactly when they did, despite wanting her very much to come).
My oldest daughter in particular has had many special experiences with her sister and after one particular dream (Nov 2012) she told me that her sister’s name had a “z” sound in it, but she couldn’t remember the exact name. My husband and I were both like, “No, we will name her, but thank you.” I had always liked the name Camille and had always thought of this girl as Camille. Shortly after my daughter’s dream, I could feel this precious unborn spirit daughter with me. I could not see her, but could just feel overwhelming peace and love that she was beside me, wanting to hold my hand (spirit to spirit). In my mind I could hear her tell me very clearly that although Camille was a pretty name, she wanted to be named Susanna (which definitely has a “z” sound in it). So since that day, she has been Susanna to us!
I absolutely positively know that Susanna’s spirit existed well before she was conceived as the Lord allowed us numerous experiences with His precious spirit daughter, Susanna (probably because He knew I needed so many if I was going to agree to have so many children!) I have also been blessed with several friends who have had similar experiences that I have had and it offers further witness to me that we lived in Heaven before coming to earth. I feel like my life has been immensely blessed with the knowledge of a pre-existence. I know someone reading this may have a hard time believing this concept as it may be so foreign to them. If you are one of those people, don’t take my word for it, pray and ask Heavenly Father if you are His spirit son or daughter who lived in Heaven before coming to earth. I truly believe that this knowledge will make your life more fulfilling.